i graduated highschool with the worst academic performance of my life. i got a girlfriend, then broke up a few months later. (no hard feelings) i went to disney world, and spent most of the time stressed out and miserable. i got a job, but lost a cat. i formed new friendships and mourned lost ones. something good, something bad, something good, something bad. that's just how my life works, but this year it seemed more intense than usual.

i don't really know what to say here. thanks to everyone who's stuck around, to everyone who i've met in the past year, to all of you. and good fucking riddiance, 2022. 2023? come at me, bitch.

mkay gonna start with the less than great things

• my paternal grandmother passed away in like december, i dont think i mentioned that here; wasn't too close to her but still sad :[
• my best friend from school moved away and i havent talked to them in months bc we are both terrible at starting conversations even online lol. i miss them a lot tho
• failed five classes first semester and at least two in the second so i am very familiar with founders education (lots of retakes.) anywaays fml
• barely managed to graduate high school; i didnt even finish my graduation cap design and spent most of the ceremony trying very hard not to burst into tears
• became involved with yet another pair of friend groups that hate each other. like this keeps happening to me for some reason, there'll be two groups of people who used to be friends but now the leaders have beef w each other so they split up and i manage to befriend/stay friends with people in both
• one of my favorite online games got shut down, rip fer.al :[[[
• got covid on literally the first day of art fight and it's still fucked me up like it's been almost four weeks and i'm still too exhausted to do af rip
• managed to become my dad's worst enemy not once but twice in the span of about a week. second time was two days ago
• spent too many hours working on a meiker.io project only to realize that the file size is too big for the website to handle. currently trying to fix this but god my hands hurt
• continued to be a disappointment to my family and friends. sigh

now the good stuff

• actually graduated high school!!! thats better than nothing
• made some cool friends in the spamton fandom :] he is my newest blorbo from my video games
• met an actual imagineer from hollywood studios!!! he hosted a lecture at the college i went to for senior year and i got to talk to him afterwards which was super cool
• volunteered as an assistant to the art teacher at my old elementary school which was really fun, also i'm pretty sure i'm her favorite student she's had so hehe
• actually got a job at said elementary school during their summer theater camps! i was the prop master so basically i spent four weeks covered in paint and slapping together whatever materials they had into cool costume bits and props lol. they did moana (one of my favorite movies!!) and beauty and the beast (which i was in in like 8th grade lol) for the plays which was super cool
• got a neocities supporter membership and made a whole new haunted mansion fan site!!! still a very big work in progress at the time of this entry but i'm excited to work on it :]
• got some kickass monster paw gloves and wore em to a local comic con which was really fun
• managed to obtain a hardcover collection of the haunted mansion slg comic series!! (if you have no idea what those are ive talked about them here) was worth the $130 lmao
• started dating someone!!!! her name is bunny and she's super cool and fun and talent and aaaaaahskfabjsdbgjks :heart: we've been watching the owl house together bc she's never seen it before and it's just been really fun eheheh

so yeah!! that's what's been going on with me lately. i'm going on vacation in a few days actually so i'm pretty excited for that too! thanks for reading this lol, hope you've been doing well too :]

well! there's a freaking war going on in europe, anti-lgbt bills being brought up a few states over, i'm failing most of my classes, my parents want me to drop out and get a job instead, and last night i though my friend had died. yeah he wasn't responding and had something concerning as his discord status so i got like seriously concerned and pretty much panicked for most of the evening. thankfully he's okay, but i remembered he's a country away from where all the war stuff is going on and like... how do you help someone who's dealing with that. on the other side of the world. what do you say. or do. i don't know. i'm so sorry.

hhhhhhhhhhhooo boy okay brighter side of things. buncha fandom stuff (monument mythos finale, haunted mansion movie release date, something else i forgor) happened which is neat, and today i got my first a+ grade of the year! i did a poster assignment for typography class, and the teacher actually said it was the best one out of the entire class hehehehe >:] i also showed him one of my old sketchbooks because he asked to see some of my other work, and he showed another professor who was like a professional illustrator or something and they were both super impressed like!!!! aaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

so yeah that's been my life lately. fun. goodnight i guess

anyways! today is my 18th birthday, wohooo!!!! honestly i'm both excited and conflicted about this tbh. like hell yeah! independence and. i dunno but at the same time,, im technically an adult??? and i don't like that!!! i still feel like a young teen ngl sndldgskls i don't think im mature enough for this yet... i remember being like 11 and going "man i can't wait to be 18 and be independent and do Adult Stuff tm!!" like. no you don't!! you do not want to be old and scared of losing touch with your younger friends and having responsibilities and regrets piling up every day!!! anyways. i'm tired as heck good night

let's see... for one thing, one of my main friend groups split apart due to my friend's awful ex who literally just showed up for not even a few months (he wasn't even a haunted mansion fan i don't think), and when they broke up half my friends took his side and left and he sent death threats to the main friend until she deleted her blog + then the whole discord server we were in, basically deleting 2 years of good memories and leaving nothing. it's just a few of us left, and it's so... not the same. so boring, almost; it's not fun anymore tbh, no jokes, just one new person who periodically posts articles about thm, uses gifs like a facebook mom, always manages to force her ocs into conversation, and looooooves complaining about "drama" and "karens" and "cancel culture". she seems nice, but... god. anyways long story short tumblr user @superstarlimo aka dex can go fuck himself and i hope his life is miserable, if anyone's in the mood to send some hate mail i highly reccommend /hj redacted for personal reasons lol

on top of that, not once but twice i had computers with important files wiped irreversably as well as something important in an online game thing i'd grown attached to, every good thing i was looking forward to that was supposed to happen in the last year and few months didn't, and above all it was the worst performance i've ever had in my academic career. so yeah. ohhhhhhh welllllllll. at least some good things happened; i met my two current best friends, made/developed a lot of character stuff, some cool fandom-related things happened... i guess that's the silver lining or something.

i don't know where i'm going with this, i just wanted to put it somewhere. goodnight

well, i should really go to bed now haha. goodnight/day dear reader :) (oh and by the way, expect more site stuff now that school's out! i've got the aforementioned fanlisting (and possibly another) in the works, along with the clicker game i started a few days ago!)

anyways the rest of the day was good. visited my grandma bc she just got back from the hospital (doing fine, thankfully! i love her) and that was pretty much it tbh. i should really sleep now, i was tired like all day and i have school stuff to work on tomorrow lol. good niiiiight :]

school was boring as usual, but the full version of miitopia came out today which is cool!!! haven't actually bought it yet but i finished the demo earlier. we have a horse now :] her name is drekkie, was originally gonna be drachorse lmao. god i love that game, still gotta finish my shrine page for it,,, highly recommend playing, either on switch or 3ds!

okay enough rambling about miitopia, haha. gotta go to bed, have an art class thing in the morning ughghskdghksl... hopefully we'll get to do something other than still lifes this class, i was promised a fantasy art portion dammit. well, goodnight! take care of yourself dear reader :3 (need a heart emoji that doesn't mess with the html editor's sensors... also does anyone actually read these? if you do you're awesome ty lol)

sorry this entry's so... negative and violent but i had to get this out. sorry.

then i got a message saying i had gotten into the animal crossing design competition i auditioned for!! like, WHAAAAT- i'm so excited!! ive never taken part in anything like it before so i'm really looking forward to it ahhh!!

okay i should probably go to bed now... goodnight dear reader, i hope something great happens to you soon!

and to you, the reader: i hope the rest of this week is kind to you! keep going, i believe in you! you can do it!!